Pin ball man staring from across the room eyes fixed anticipating the ride
striking features hollywood smile you laughed with me you wore red converse
time escapes me and you are there loving supporting taking care of me
soft kisses and tender unknown desire respect encouragement and dreams
escape adventure the highest of thrills diving down to the depths of the ocean
In the dark and in the day travel new places excitement with every turn
Swimming snakes
But darkness something always constantly that wasn’t there or was there and we covered it up like a dust bunny swept it under the rug and found the thrill anyway so much and yet so little committed to being co-dependent committed to fulfill our own needs
Make not a bond of love
Death and the birth and the birth and the birth until we were done every ounce of adrenaline spent brain dead and more brain dead and more brain dead because of the first and more important love who we were and what we loved is gone life changed we changed and neither of us was ready a utopia for someone else for someone who appreciates candles and comfy couches and children laughing in a yard and dinner and stability
Your girlfriend sends me a picture of my boyfriend nice or wicked what is the point if only to make me more insecure I love and miss you and want to find the desire we once knew or maybe knew or maybe never knew but only needed one another intertwined like barbed wire strong and willing to withstand great challenges but spiked and twisted and rusted from the rain will we make the effort or will we continue on our path I don’t think you want to leave me I think you only want the thrill the high of life that we all search for while writing at Starbucks on a Thursday night oh how I love a cup of calm and vanilla
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