Snow Queen

And so I cry the thought of leaving you

Spoon fed with happiness

Reality removed as the snowflakes fall

I dance in my dream but know of the sludge that’s underneath

I prepare to say good-bye I prepare to say hello again

I’ll miss you Mr. Jolly thanks for flying me up North

I’ll miss you tender kisses and hands full of desire for me

I’ll miss you trips of no worry and no complaints

I’ll miss you my friend

You’ve been here for me with love

The snowflakes fall and dance and shine

Reflections from the light

The snowflakes surround me

I’m a vision of happiness no sorrow and no restraints

I spin in a circle I float on the way down

I swirl as the wind blows and I shine with light

A tiara full of diamonds upon my head

I’m cold

And, There You Were

And, there you were

Unexpected

Smiling

Eyes Ablaze

Showing Affection

Supportive

Encouraging

Inviting

Accommodating

Across from me

And, there you were

Unexpected

Longing

Eating

Brown

Eyes Ablaze

And, there you were

Again

You made it happen

Again you were there

Across from me

Again

Again

Again

Full of Love

Pin ball man staring from across the room eyes fixed anticipating the ride

striking features hollywood smile you laughed with me you wore red converse

time escapes me and you are there loving supporting taking care of me

soft kisses and tender unknown desire respect encouragement and dreams

escape adventure the highest of thrills diving down to the depths of the ocean

In the dark and in the day travel new places excitement with every turn

Swimming snakes

But darkness something always constantly that wasn’t there or was there and we covered it up like a dust bunny swept it under the rug and found the thrill anyway so much and yet so little committed to being co-dependent committed to fulfill our own needs

Make not a bond of love

Death and the birth and the birth and the birth until we were done every ounce of adrenaline spent brain dead and more brain dead and more brain dead because of the first and more important love who we were and what we loved is gone life changed we changed and neither of us was ready a utopia for someone else for someone who appreciates candles and comfy couches and children laughing in a yard and dinner and stability

Your girlfriend sends me a picture of my boyfriend nice or wicked what is the point if only to make me more insecure I love and miss you and want to find the desire we once knew or maybe knew or maybe never knew but only needed one another intertwined like barbed wire strong and willing to withstand great challenges but spiked and twisted and rusted from the rain will we make the effort or will we continue on our path I don’t think you want to leave me I think you only want the thrill the high of life that we all search for while writing at Starbucks on a Thursday night oh how I love a cup of calm and vanilla

Lost our Way

We no longer camp or go on day trips,

our laughter stolen by the stress of life.

Hopes forgotten and dreams removed.

We lost our way.

We no longer quarrel,

no longer debate.

We don’t agree,

nor do we care.

Eyes wonder during the effort to talk.

All a laborious discussion-the task of getting along. 

We are no longer each other’s cheerleader,

now only a pain in each other’s side. 

Hardly worth the time and energy;

it’s easier to seek happiness with something new.

We lost our identities, and blame each other for the misery and regrets.

Traveling down a path diverging;

our view in the rear view mirror is now unknown.

We lost our way.

Desperate we search for optimism,

looking to find and smell a rose.

We sacrifice our morals just to keep the peace.  

Mystified, we ponder when and where it went wrong.  

Resolved, we accept anything in order to find our lost way.